Tonight I had a callback for a play here at school. It went really well I think and I had a lot of fun meeting new people and getting to know acquaintances better. Also, acting is just a lot of fun so overall it was a great night.
But, I’m agitated.
Prematurely, but still.
The play calls for one of the main characters to kiss another main character. Fairly normal for a play. Apparently, the director doesn’t expect anything crazy, but they asked at tryouts if I’m comfortable kissing someone. I said pretty much no the first night, but tonight at call backs I said I’d probably be willing to if I was cast.
It has raised a barrage of questions for me personally but also I think for Christian actors.
To start with, when they asked the first night if I’m comfortable with kissing, I said, “Is it terrible to say it depends on who it is?”. Super professional.
But I guess that’s number one. Whether it’s good or bad, it would depend on who was cast in the other role.
Secondly, I never thought that my first kiss would be a stage kiss, but if I am cast, it probably will be. That’s not what I pictured. I didn’t picture a classic Princess Diaries foot pop.
I don’t know what I pictured, but it sure as heck wasn’t something staged with a person I barely know.
Number three, I mentioned to the director that I’ve never even kissed anyone before. She said it’s fine, that it’s totally normal to have your first kiss be a stage kiss. She said hers was. That’s fine for others, but is it fine with me?
The first one offered a lot of opinions. Some made sense, others didn’t. Some I agreed with, some I’m not so sure.
Most importantly though, it doesn’t matter what people have to say; it matters what God says about it.
I’ve been praying about it and now writing this to help me sift through my own thoughts.
To wrap up:
- Any worrying on my part would be premature. I haven’t been cast yet.
- God knows me. He knows what I can handle. He put this in my life on purpose, whether I just have to think this through tonight or if I cast.
- God works all things for my benefit. He is with me. He is loving, wise, and purposeful.
- Only what God says matters. I should not look to others or myself for an answer to this.